Insomnia

An empty gaze filled my eyes yesterday,
Just staring at the screen and contemplating,
The blues couldn't bring in the expected results.
I could have just shut down everything and split,
But there was something that told me not to.
It was just probably because I wanted to talk,
Thats it you know,
Open my trap and let you know that I am weary,
That I still fight the feeling of futility.
But there was no use blowing your spirits as well,
And so I helped myself with some caffeine,
Not too much but just enough to soothe me a bit.
And then I again sat up infront of the screen thinking,
Though I'm not too sure what kept me up all night,
Was it my fear, was it you or was it just the caffeine.