The Forbidden Trip

I was having a talk with a recent aquaintance of mine about spirituality, mysticism and dope and the connection between them. Now from knowing him, he is an experienced pro who has recently taken up Christianity and has got out of drugs. What explanations I heard from him were beyond any kind of rationale to me. He spoke about mysticism as a way of attaining supreme knowledge...only that this was a bad act. I could not believe my ears. Now I have been reading up alot on Spirituality, actually dope and related experiences. The feeling was one of being suspended in both space and time. A feeling of supreme power...that which can be unsurpassed. However I doubt the authenticity of this feeling, which is the only thing preventing me from trying it. But I do beleive that to straighten the Kundalini up my spine is my ultimate goal. I do believe I can do this through my work. The feeling would definitely be equivalent of a pure suspension. But still is it really that easy. Does it take practice? According to my learned friend the feeling of knowledge attainment is an induced truth brought about by Satan. The power engulfing you will be pure evil simply because you reject the existence of any other God other than yourself. To him self sustainance is sin. To me its my purpose. I cannot see a reason why God would forbid his creations to turn sefl sustainance. It would be his absolute victory. Why would he prevent his child from getting knowledge of fire by burning himself when he knows that experience is the best teacher. All this is beyond my comprehension. I see science as a means to attain God and not as a gift conferred on us to enjoy ourselves. Science is a tribute to intellect, the single most greatest creation from God. SOmething that seperates us from animals. The last strain of what will be left as human. Its not your body. Its the awareness and the pure bliss of being in the zero. Burying yourself deeper into layers till only observation exists and you aware only of yourself. As a whole. I long for that feeling. And once I reach that place, my words will vanish. I will not be seeing you again. Atleast not in this world.
This will be my final trip.